that message made me realise a lot of stuff. i never really meant anything to you. it’s painful but that’s the fact i got to accept. we only miss each other when we are bored. but i accidently put in some feelings in it. oh well, it’s okay. i understood even more now. and i’m so getting myself out of this mess. so i guess that’s the end of weird friendship. if you don’t have the courage to end it, i will. be happy with her. :)

gahhh. fuck you. just fuck out of my life and i really don’t wanna see you in a while. 

i’m not the kind of girl who believes at love at first sight, or in happiness last forever crap at this age. who gave up, who walked away? there’s nothing to discuss about anymore. whether its i walked away, and you didn’t chase after, or you gave up first, its the past. it’s not worth mentioning it now anyway. i clearly know what kind of person you are, and i know what kind of person i am. but yet there’s something about you i couldn’t let go off. day by day, things get easier. because i know that nothing will ever change between us. i’m still really sorry for what i did. we both made a mistake. and i actually put feelings in it. that was the biggest mistake. so i’m slowly stepping out of it. and we will never be the same like last time again. we can never be together, but we can never make it as normal friends either. enjoy your life, and i will definitely enjoy mine the way i intend to. 

we have the weirdest relationship ever. i never talk to you for the whole week. i’ve seen what you did with her. seems like it’s pretty a good time.  so i told myself i will keep to my words and stay out of it. at times where i misses you, i couldn’t do anything. so i will just keep it to myself. as much as i don’t want to, it’s best for us to be in this situation. so take care and study hard. i will pretend that you never mean anything to me. i miss how things used to be before we started anything. but strangers, that’s what i have to deal with right now. 

yeap, that’s how i feel right now. it sucks. but it’s something i have to accept. i did actually, because i’m the one avoiding conversations with you. i don’t want to bring up the past in us anymore. not in the morning, not when we are alone and not at night. i still think of the promises you made to me, think of the happy times, but it’s all over. a year has passed. what’s done is done. nothing can change now. whether it’s a mistake or a choice, we already choose the path long ago. therefore, what we can do now is make the best out of everything that we have now. she might be crazy and all, but that doesn’t mean i have the right to interfer the relationship. so it’s better to be stangers again. let’s just stay out of each other’s life.